I am me and You are you.

late night

Mon, 12 May 2008 08:37:25 GMT

hmmm. late night post. so quiet except for the rain pounding outside. i miss lauras. shes asleep right now. =( I just cant sleep right now for some reason. Just dont feel tired is all. So figured may as well update some people on my life.

lets see. first the chinatown trip was pretty good. we found these awesome pokemon side window covers for the car and they are amazing! haha. we also got the nyanko pig things for the cars seatbelts. i forget what they are called. lauras knows. ask her. oh and poor obama lady. im sure she was disapointed that Clinton won the PA primary. i always seem to have fun hanging out with matt and brittany. they are so much better people than others. o.O

after the chinatown event it was too Ocean City for me and my love. we had some fun i think. the weather got better towards the end of the trip and we both actually managed to get sunburned. we played some arcade games and won this amazing owl. our 2 year anniversary dinner was nothing short of amazing. a nice big bushel of crabs!!! oh mys they were delicious. and what better way to end a week at the beach than on your last night watching the amazing nbc comedy done right line up. yes we are nerds. and we are proud of it!! it was a fun trip though!

so bah to work. Roger talked to me a few weeks ago and said that it could be another 6 months before i am able to get out of towson. -.- this sucks. out of management, i was the first that wanted to go and yet i am now the only one left. eric was transferred last friday to westminster. sigh. gonna miss him. was pretty fun working with him and all. i am already tired of Jay. our new Ops manager. and now there is a new presentation manager Jodie who worked with Jay for the past whatever amount of years. both my boss. both sticklers for rules. sigh. i miss the old towson crew. i did get to work with larry/roger/liz again last week though. helped them out up in abingdon setting up the new store and got some nice overtime ours. i just want to transfer!!!!! get me out of towson already please. the drive is killing me. the GAS is killing me. and the new bosses will be the final death of me. i am losing my will to work there -.- and i really enjoy working for this company.

/sigh. in other news me and lauras got our tickets for opening night of the new Indiana Jones movie. very excited about seeing that. i am sure it will be nothing short of amazing.

i hate lauras brother john. i could seriously yell at him sometimes. he acts like a 5 year old. cries and yells over dumb stuff. bah i need an electricians help to finish our new home in the back. it sounds simple to set up but i am a little unsure of it right now. maybe i just need to read more into it.

i wrote a freaking novel. well at least it gave you guys something to read. so there. oh.

I LOVE LAURAS!!!!!!!!!

party time

Sat, 19 Apr 2008 00:20:50 GMT

excellent!
i couldnt resist. sorry. now onto business.

lets see. whats new. uhmm, i have next week off finally for vacation thank god. its going to be a pretty good week i think. tomorrow me and lauras are going to watch movies and hang out with my sister. than sunday its to PA to meet up with matt and brittney for chinatown. than mon-friday its ocean city for me and lauras. we are celebrating our two year anniversary and i am very excited. hopefully the weather is decent but either way i am really looking forward to it.

ive actually bought myself some new clothes for like the first time a few months. oh and lauras is cute btw. lauras said that my new outfit is scene but its comfy and i like how it looks so there. just actually went out tonight to target and bought this amazingly soft hat. it reminds me of my grandad because he used to have a hat in the same style and well, you know, i just miss him and all.

i finally sat down and did my taxes. yay for me procrastinating. i ended up getting a little over 900 back. we are thinking about either a flatscreen tv or a ps3. we havent decided yet. i want both!!! the shed is finally coming along. i rented a storage unit for the rest of the stuff in it. next weekend i am going to try and get most of the work done on it so we can finally get in there and get situated.

brown and plaid is a very good color/combo on me. dont know why. but i love it. and it looks good on me. im so modest. like mouse. modest mouse. oh yea, so ill just float on.

okay im done with that.

work lately has become pretty boring. blech. i really wish i knew my fate there. i would like to go to work for larry at abingdon but i would even work for roger at white marsh. both of them are two good guys and they have both taught me a lot about the business. what can i say. i actually like my retail job.

well thats it for now methinks.

love you lauras!!!!!!!!!

the news so far...

Sun, 06 Apr 2008 21:23:49 GMT

Well, it has been a tough week. On tuesday morning around 1:15am my Grandad left us. He went in his sleep which they say is peaceful and a good way to go. I just wish that he would have woken up so we all could say goodbye. He wasn't alone. Basically everyone that cared for him was around his bedside. I am definitly missing him. Its really odd to think that you go to a place where they used to live and you turn that corner and expect them to be sitting in that chair that they sit in all the time. Now the chair is empty. He wont be there anymore. And that makes me really sad to think about. But I know he is in a better place now. He was in so much pain the past few years and especially months. At least he is with my Granmom now. I miss you both.

In other news, Lauras got ill yesterday. She has been resting/sleeping mostly. I miss her. I hope she gets better soon because I feel really weird without my better half beside me at home.

Secret secret. She got me into Sex and the City. I dont know how but she did. Its like grittier version of Gilmore Girls almost. What can I say, I am such a chick sometimes. I dont care though and she loves me for it.

Mmm, well thats it for now. Just a quick update is all.

LAURAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Get better babe.

Love you!!!!!!

my grandad

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 17:56:32 GMT

please dont let him die

moving on up

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 19:25:42 GMT

lets seee. apparently through the grapevine some people at work know that i am transferring. eh, i am just waiting for it since it will be a lot closer. just still unsure of which store i am going to.

got some more things from the apartment today. will be getting more tomorrow as well. than sat/sunday will get the big items. very excited to be setting up our new living area as it is going to be amazing. i bought this super comfy chair from target on clearence yesterday. omg you could die in it and be happy. this is the chair

we were going to get 2 but as it being on clearence pretty much no other targets have it.

tomorrow josh wants to meet up with me and david to sign the lease over. fine by me. me, lauras, josh and sarah are going to see Run Fat Boy, Run. that movie looks hilarious. Simon Pegg is amazing.

ummmm... what else.

im hungry. wonder what lauras is going to make to eat. ah yes, lauras got a job working at kleins which is the local grocery store. she will probably do bakery or something like that. ah, to smell bread all day long. nice!

guess thats it. laters.

Sun, 23 Mar 2008 15:14:01 GMT

happy easter!!

news and stuff

Sat, 22 Mar 2008 23:10:17 GMT

ill be glad in a month when all of this shit is over with and i never have to deal with david or jamie ever again. god really.

now onto better things.

im excited because i will be getting promoted which is more money so yay! the only question now is where am i going to transfer to? I really want to go to the new store in abingdon. i think that would just be amazing really. however, if i cant go there, Roger, who is our former second in command at towson who just got promoted to store manager is white marsh said he will steal me lol. didnt realize i was that wanted as a worker. im glad i like my job and enjoy the people in the company. i wonder what towson is going to be like in a month though. ehh, i just want to go to abingdon and kick some ass in the new store. it looks amazing!!!!!!!!!!

me and lauras saw Doomsday last night. it was better than i thought it was going to be. an amazing car chase scene though. and lol, wow just some hilarious parts in the movie. we also got these cool new seat covers for the car that have gryffindor like lions on it. pure awesomeness. also a nice watermelon car smelly thing. i honestly cant think of what it is called right now.... oh wait, air freshener. thats it. it smells simply wonderful.

got more of our new living area cleaned out, just a little more than half left to go. monday we are gonna grab the bulk of our stuff from the apartment as well. exciting times eh?

ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.....................

hmmmm, lauras is talking to her mumsy right now. she is so cute!!!!!!! god i love her. incase no one knew <33333333333

im gonna take a shower and eat the amazing dinner lauras is making me right now. than we are gonna watch Across the Universe which i hear is amazing.

umm..... thats it
bai.

<3 lauras

Wed, 19 Mar 2008 23:36:39 GMT

omg. its jason. and he is posting. everyone run away. i just checked and the last time i updated this thing was 68 weeks ago. sheesh im horrible. honestly. who waits that long to let others know what is going on in their lives. me i guess.

laura is the love of my life. period. no ifs, ands or buts about it. we are so intune with each other it is like magic. we love everything the same almost, it really is uncanny. i have never felt so strongly towards someone and never again will i.

a lot in our lives has changed over the past several months. last april for our one year anniversary i suprised her with a week in Disneyworld. one of her lifelong dreams and let me say. the look on her face when we first entered the gate of Magic Kingdom. it WAS magic. i wouldnt trade that memory and experience for anything in the world. she looked so incredibly happy. but back on track here. last november we moved into an apartment right near my work at petsmart with another one of the employees there and his girlfriend. i wont say anyting bad. i dont want to be like that. i will just say i lost my temper and yelled at him for emotionally harrassing laura for no reason. none whatsoever. and all he does is sit there. so we got out of there. it was seriously hell.

i think these last few weeks have been bad and good. us moving out of there i think was a blessing in disguise. a week ago i had a 1995 ford contour which had the passenger side window broken and was just a blechy car. but it worked. until last week that is. me driving about 35 miles to get to work apparently was too much for this little car. it died on my way to work on the highway. buy-bye little car. i shall miss you!

that was the worst week i swear because i had to for the first time in about 650 days spend the night away from laura. i wont lie. it was seriously one of the worst nights of my life. we both hated so much to be apart even for that short amount of time. it may sound ridiculous, but seriously. i never want to do that again.

so than the hunt began for a new car. i found some i liked but i didnt have good enough credit to get the financing i needed so i could afford the monthly payment and the insurance on it. finally my mom cosigned with me. dropping my monthly payments dramatically thank god. i ended up getting a 2006 PT Cruiser which apparently is a car that lauras has always loved. i didnt know that until i told her that that is what i bought. well we love the car and it runs great.

as for the living conditions we are going to convert the giant shed in the back of her moms house into a studio apartment. it is going to be amazing!!! we are going to do some landscaping and build a little deck. i can hardly wait to get it all set up.

me and lauras are coming up on our two year anniversary and i want it to be amazing but i dont know what to do yet. with this whole living/car thing going on i know i cant amaze her like i did last year with disneyworld. im not sure what to do >.<

I LOVE YOU BABY!!!!!!!!!!

my work is great. i am loving it. i am probably going to be promoted again soon which is awesome. im very excited. big changes are coming to the towson petsmart and it is going to be interesting to see how it unfolds.

well, i think im gonna go. i am going to try and update this thing on a much more regular basis from here on out. ummm.....

bai!

p.s Don't Hassle the Hoff!
ever!

Tue, 15 Aug 2006 08:14:34 GMT

Today I dyed my hair. It looks silly because it's blue instead of the black I wanted. OKAY, it's a little black, but wow. When you look at it under proper lightning... hello, iodine!

My hair smells funny, oh and I missed my sideburns AND the roots of my hair. GOOD JOB SELF.

I still work at Petsmart. I do like playing with kitty litter.

Otakon was fun. I definitely otakon'd like no tomorrow. And gee whiz, my girlfriend looked saucy all weekend. I'd bang her. Oh wait.

HAHA. Did you get it? That was a sexual innuendo. Hoho. Am I witty or not?
(That's rhetorical)

The other day I went over Lauras house and there was so much pussy over me. Man. And what was even more suprising was my girlfriend taking pictures of it all.

Also the other day I tried on a skirt. And honestly, it didn't feel as weird as I thought it would. I really wanted to try some heels with it, but Laura didn't have any. Or any eyeliner.. than again, I'm not suprised- she's so breathtakingly gorgeous she doesn't need any makeup.

See how secure I am with my sexuality. VEWY. Haha. Get it? Like I have a lisp like I'm gay, but I'm not.

I just fell off a chair. How does one do that? Trying to kiss the cutest girl ever.! Exclamation point!!

I should shave my legs. It'd be funny. If I look down right now, I can see my own nipples. My shirt is still inside out. I should shave my chest. Or at least around my belly button. Or my armpits. I look very gorgeous with no shirt on, btw. My girlfriend can't stop staring. Lemme flex. Ohhh baby.

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 05:40:28 GMT

jajajaja.

jason, you're so dumb to leave your livejournal logged in. NOW I CAN POST WHATEVER I WANT. BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

im kidddding. you know, you were all sleeping and snoring and stuff and i just had the hugest urge to chuck this pen at you. i didn't- but i did have the urge. =) love you.

Fri, 14 Jul 2006 11:19:00 GMT

my name is jason and i sleep.

jajajajaja.

i also collect sailor moon cards and dragonballz ones too. i dont like to eat meat because i feel sad for the aminals.poor aminals. but i do like french fries. they sure are some good eatin'. jiggle jiggle.

yes, jayshins. i was bored. lay off me. you're snoring. kinda. its like a half assed type of snore. like someone shoved a peanut up your nose. im tired. and emo. well kinda. im moreso tired than emo. my nose itches. i think its cuz your fan is blowing my hair up my nostrils. ahhhh. 86753099999.

yeah, im bored. do you realise theres a heart on your desk? WEIRDO. GOD. GEEZ. JUST WOW. and wtf is with your display picture. ill make you an awesome one. kakaka.

Fri, 23 Jun 2006 16:41:05 GMT

so lets see. awesome week so far. laura has been over for most of the week and the other days i have been over her house. i love being with her so very much. we went and saw Nacho Libre on tuesday. i thought it was pretty good though i think laura was grossed out at some parts :D ummmm.... i just left her house because i have work tonight. blech. i hate working nights. oh yea, so laura met my whole family at a cookout that we had. yea, not really big news, but it was fun. i love her. so yea, i wish it were tomorrow so i could go see her again. /sigh i wish we lived closer. oh wells. think thats it for now. yup. laters

Tue, 30 May 2006 02:12:13 GMT

one word.

love.

Life is Bliss for Once!

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 07:58:10 GMT

My my my. What an exciting time the past few months have been. I have been out of work for like 4 months now. -.- I am still looking for a job, nothing really has shown any promise yet though. Still going to school though, seeing as how I still want to do something with animation or drawing. Something in that field, just not exactly sure what yet. I know that I am really starting to like working with digital art and coloring stuff on the computer. That is a lot of fun. Though I think I like the animating feature just as much. Putting together that flows on paper with movement and all, its a good feeling to know that you did that. I dont know. Ill figure it out soon enough.

So my old house caught fire the other day. Yea. No one was hurt. The house is just really messed up. A lot of stuff got ruined. I got all of my things that were not ruined, nothing major was really lost which is good. Still though, odd feeling to see the house you grew up in so demolished. I dunno.

So life right now is great. I am really happy. I met someone. I really like her. Hanging out with her is just so awesome. We have so much fun together, always a blast. I mean we can stay up all night talking and its always something new. I love it. Im finally happy.

Otakon is fast approaching. I need a costume for this year. No real solid ideas yet. Something will pop into my head and I will get to work on it. Less than four months to it so I need to start on it. Ahh, so excited to go again. One of the things I enjoy most every year. Ah yes, I am actually going to HFStival this year. Never thought I would go, but it sounds fun with the right people.

Well, thats it. You know me by now. I dont update that often. I do when I do. Thats it. Goodnight and laters.

Tue, 28 Mar 2006 06:19:25 GMT

i think i found someone....

Swoosh!!

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 06:05:58 GMT

So, been a little while since I have posted anything. Not really much to say I suppose. Been living life, guess thats how its supposed to be and all. Back in school, taking some more classes for my animation degree. I'll be happy once all my stuff from my old house will be here, will make it a lot easier for me to start working on my animation. Right now I have to use the kitchen table as my drawing table. My actual drawing table and work desk are not here >.< Ah yes, my laptop, which is now my former laptop decided it didn't like me anymore and went and blew up. Not literally of course, but it should have with all of my stuff it took with it. Damn laptop. So many works on there now gone. ::sigh::

Changed my look as of late as well. Got a fairly short haircut and decided to bleach my hair again. Has been so long since I have done that. I would go ahead and dye it the purple I have but I need to find a job first. Damnit, why won't anybody hire me. Ahhh!!!! I need a job so bad right now. I am getting my license on Monday so I am going to need money for insurance and gas. Though I will say I cannot wait for monday as I really hope to get my license. Finally!

Ah yes, Happy Birtday Kristy. Mine's on Sunday. Wow, cant believe I'm gonna be 21 already. Time sure does seem to pass me by. Met up with Tim today, one of my old friends from highschool. We have had an idea for a flash animation series which we are currenlty working on in our spare time. I will spare the details for now as when the first "episode" is done, I will be uploading it for the general public to view at their pleasure. We also watched the footage from Otakon with Piano Squall. A very talented pianist I might add. Though our camera work was pretty shotty sadly to say.

I had to submit an idea for a short animation I have to do for class. I did, but now I am having second thoughts. I really want to work on something else. I might ask my teacher if I can do that, I will just hand all the work in again but under another topic. I hope he says yes because I am feeling a lot more confident about the second topic than the first. Time will tell. Also will be attending Villa Julie College on Feb. 4th for the Piano Squall concert, so that will be a fun time. Already looking forward to that.

Wow, can't believe I actually wrote that much. I remember when I used to update my xanga like everyday with stuff this long. Though that was back in highschool when I actually did stuff. Ah well, chip chip cheerio and all that jazz.

Life is just that, complicated

Sat, 24 Dec 2005 06:01:18 GMT

Well, a lot has happened in the past month or so. I dont want to go to deeply into details as they are pretty personal. I've moved out of the house. I no longer will be living there. I also quit my job. I cant tell you how much better I felt after I quit that job. Just man, that job for me literally drained any happiness that I felt at all. I am back at my parents house. I feel better here. For some reasons though, I will occasionaly get hit with a mood of well, I guess you would call it depression. I just feel kinda lost and sad. Kinda like how I feel right now. This sorta helps but not a lot. ::Sigh::

I gotta dye my hair again. I am so tired of this plain look. See at my last job I couldnt dye my hair, damn them. I am going with a light purple. Will have results and probably pictures for everyone tomorrow. Infact, even as late as it is I might go ahead and do it now. I also wanna get my ear pierced again. Hmmm, I have been looking for another job. I'm no freeloader. Unfortunately I havent found a place as of yet. I'm hoping.

I wish I had someone to talk to about certain things. I want that feeling with someone. I've only really ever had it once but thats been over for quite a while. I dont know..

Well, I hope everyone has a good christmas eve. laters.

Gone

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 17:37:16 GMT

Will be gone for a week. No internet for a week. >< Bye until Friday. ::sigh::

Okay....

Sat, 03 Dec 2005 06:03:03 GMT

Well hmm. First time in my life that someone has called me a faggot, even if it was jokingly. It hurt, and I dont know why. I don't think of myself as gay. I like women enough and all. I think it was because I like the odd things. I got this marvelous key cut for my house, and I used a blank which was all purple and had the Evil Witch on it from Snow White. I'll have a picture of it up later. I thought it looked lovely though. I like those types of colors though. I like looking odd to when I go into public, I love the effect it has on people. So priceless.

Poker addiction. Can I have it? You betcha I can. Have made about 50 bucks so far on it. Going very well. Seems I will have some spending money for christmas presents this year after all. Hmm, now what to get the 2 people I know.

Wow, that was a rant. Thats it. bye bye. you may go now.

Moolah!

Thu, 01 Dec 2005 00:43:31 GMT

I am having so much fun playing online poker. So far in 3 days, I have made 30 bucks, and I only started with 10, so thats not all that bad I think. Nice way to get a little spending money. Work is blah! like normal. is to be expected i guess. Ah, I cannot wait for my next semester. I finally get to learn how to use Adobe Photoshop! For all the non-animators out there, thats the best image editing program in the market right now. Ahh, I cant wait for it to come in. than i can really start to have fun with my drawings. We got these keys in today with disney characters on them, tomorrow i am going to cut a copy of the one with the Evil Witch on it from Snow White, looks cool, at least to my eyes.

christmas time is coming up on us rather fast. i love this time of year, i guess its just the feeling you get during the holiday season. pretty soon will have to be getting some gifts for people. no idea what to get anyone though. i wish it would snow and lay on the ground already. i love when it snows. it looks very pretty outside. you know what im talking about. i might lose my internet for like a week >< starting tomorrow. i hope i dont, if i do, well, see you when i get back.

Freedom

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 01:56:12 GMT

This whole next week I am going back to the basics. I am starting all over with drawing. I need to do that in order to get back to where I used to be. I know that by the end of a week or two that I will be back to my former self. I am also happy to say that the MMO game is no longer a issue in my life. I am free from it. Well, just thought I would say that. Thats it. You may leave now.

Thu, 24 Nov 2005 14:13:36 GMT

It feels like i've had a major epiphany in the last hour or so. I feel a little different than I did when I woke up this morning or when I tried to do my schoolwork yesterday. Its like I finally realized something that I have always known. If that makes any sense. I play a online game. I know I know, apparently I just couldnt quit because I was so addicted. I play the game just a little everyday. Mostly when I am done everything school wise that I need to get done for the day. Well, that didnt happen this past weekend. I hate the fucking game so much that it does this to me. I will tell myself I am stronger than it, but in the end it wins out. There is a problem here and today it seems to have struck me. I almost find myself thinking about the game and not about things that really matter. I used to have a passion to draw. I used to enjoy it. Now though, I only find myself drawing for schoolwork and with only little enjoyment or enthusiasm. I hate that. I dont know what happened to me. I want that feeling back but I cant find it. It seems lost just like me.

I feel really bad about this too. Because I am so unfocused right now and it is really effecting me in a negative way. I am going to have to drop my Art History class because of it. I've fallen behind so much so that its basically impossible for me to catch up. That really saddens me. I just want to have fun drawing again. I want to be able to enjoy it. I remember times when I would just sit and draw simply because I could. Not because I had some big project due. I know I said all of this before, but I dont think I felt it so strongly like this before. I have a few unfinished things to take care of tonight. After that, I will see where it goes. I can feel something different about it this time. I will let you know how it goes.

Mon, 23 May 2005 00:35:57 GMT

yup